Choice will and action : confusion

Can one say to oneself, is the reality, the actuality, that one part is not confused and therefore says the rest is confused, the rest of the fragments, or do you say, 'I am really deeply confused', because the culture in which I have been brought up says, 'Conform', the culture in which I have been brought up says, 'Be ambitious, fight, struggle, be violent', accept this ideology, or that ideology; and that culture has imposed on the mind certain definite activities. Now the mind sees what this culture has done - wars, appalling violence, destruction of nature, pollution of air, everything this culture has absolutely destroyed, nearly. And I reject all that, the mind rejects all that and I don't know what to do, and I am confused - you follow? Now which is it you are: partially confused - physically you know you are not confused, you want your sex, you want your food, shelter, clothing, there there is no confusion; if you can't get what you want you get violent and all the rest of it - or throughout your whole activity of the mind there is confusion.